Thoughts from the Laundry room.

This is from my dear blogging friend and sister in Christ Amber. If I could have written this from my very own heart this is exactly how it would have came out, but she writes it so much better! I have been thinking about this a lot lately, who we as women feel like we need to be to the world. I think that if we just strive to be ourselves (who God created us to be) and not what the world "thinks" we should be then indeed many people would nestle in a little closer , be thankful for the normalcy and breathe a little lighter knowing that in your presence they dont have to strive for perfection and that they are not alone in their struggles.
I admit, one of my own personal struggles is when I have to go and visit somebody who I have to "pretend" for, or feel like I need to impress. Dont we all have 1 or 2 people like that in our lives? It makes me wonder if that person is feeling like they need to be that way around me too? I hope not. Oh Lord, make me more like you!!!

God Bless. Anna

{my laundry room}

i read once that every blogger has to come to a point of defining what their blog will be about.

which made me think. gee. i wish i had one of those nice cooking blogs.
where i just talk about how to roast a chicken or boil eggs properly.

or a decorating blog. simply showing pictures of beautiful fluffy things {all in white},
which seems to be all the rage now.

instead. i have a blog about life. my life.
which isn't anything overly super cool or extraordinary.

i've learned {hopefully.workingonit} to blog just for myself. if that makes sense?
to write as if talking to friends, and view this place as simply one to record life lessons.
and yet, there are times when even open book me hesitates to record.
when i don't want anyone to see my ugly side, for fear they'll run away screaming..
when trying to write down and process what God's working over in my life might come out just a bit too messy.
and weird, and not coated in all the "spiritual" sounding things it should~

when sometimes. i just want to say, "life kinda sorta sucks today." and not feel i have to tag on the disclaimer,
"BUT! there's so much to be thankful for!" ;)

maybe some just turned and ran away just then. but, that's okay.
if anything, i'm tired of the try hard life of pleasing others, and ready to drop the walls and just get real.
dirty laundry? yeah. maybe sometimes.
but ya know what, girlfriends.. dirty laundry is part of life.
trust me. you'll never see my dirtiest. and i trust i won't see yours.
there's boundaries and some things only meant to be shared between us and God.
but i'm done with closing the door all the time on my laundry room before i let a friend through the front door~
do you get what i mean?

especially in the online world.
we've become so airy fairy with our lives that some are afraid to ever admit to having a bad day~
and sure. online isn't exactly the "real world." i get that.
but the women on the other side of this screen are certainly living in the real world, same as me.
and in most real worlds, bad days {weeks.months.years} happen. ;)
and i want to allow others the freedom to admit when life isn't all, praise Jesus and kumbaya. with no disclaimers necessary.

to works toward being the kind of christian that lets others breathe a bit easier when they're around me~

and. "you breathe different in a room when you know it’s not about the good you can accomplish but about the grace you can accept."

at times though, when i'm not necessarily feeling "on," i tend to hunker down and hide.
from those closest to me, to of course, blogging about it.~

but as i discovered once again this week.. satan likes it when i hunker and hide.
he wants me to. he knows he's got me then.
out of reach from those that God might use to encourage my heart, uplift and point me back to Him.
and as hard as it might be to stand and allow my faults to be seen full on, i know ultimately, that's what i need~
to be reminded. no, Satan. you're wrong. i'm not alone in this one.

and though different people and different journeys, people and journey's just the same~
hopefully all striving towards the same finish line. the finish line of "well done," when someday, our eyes meet His.
for now. some may walk. some may sprint. some may limp along. but we're all going to eventually get there.
BY HIS GRACE. we're all going to eventually get there.~

and yeah. maybe with a bit of dirty laundry every now and then flying all over the place in the process! :)